Well I’ve spent this weekend in retreat with my fellow food addicts, compulsive overeaters, binge eaters and folks who suffer from a variety of eating disorders. Its been an enlightening weekend and one filled with self reflection and evaluation.
I fully admit to being a serious addict of refined sugar and in fact that’s been an addiction for me for as long as I can remember. However, this weekend has been emotionally confronting in that I also have to come to terms with being a compulsive overeater. If there’s food within sight, I HAVE to eat it. 🙁
So many people don’t understand how debilitating food addiction can be. In suffering from this overwhelming disease, I’ve gained 20kg over my safe weight, increased my blood sugar level, raised my cholesterol levels and generally made myself unwell. It’s time to stop and that day came yesterday. My abstinence of chocolate and refined sugar is now in its second successful day. My daily plan of 3 healthy meals and 1 small non sugar snack is now firmly set in place, with tonight’s delicious salad in superb, and tasty, confirmation of that plan.
This blog, as well as being a personal journal of my life journey, will need to become the vehicle for my accountability. It’s here I will need to face the truth of my condition and be honest with myself and others about my success and inevitable failures. Trying to overcome the demons of addiction is something I clearly am unable to do alone hence joining Overeaters Anonymous and commencing the journey through a 12 step program. The responsibility for my own health and success lays squarely with me. I hope you will all offer me encouragement, motivation, inspiration and congratulations along the path; and when I fail, I hope you will all offer me a non judgemental hand to get back up and a smile to send me back to sobriety.
In honesty and in faith,